What a night….
Well it’s been a wild and crazy past few days. I ended up going to the ER last night because my body just couldn’t take it anymore. I was so tired and sore that I couldn’t do anything but sleep. I wasn’t able to keep things down or in for th at matter. I even went on the “brat” diet and ended get sick still. The last straw was when I started seeing blood when I threw up. My face was so blood shot and red. I was running a really high temperature. It was scary. My Crazy Crohn’s disease was really kicking me in the ass needless to say. I get there and everyone is under nice and got in a room with my own bathroom in the ER. I got started on an IV and blood work was being done. My blood pressure was over the top at 200 something because of the pain. The doctor took one look at me turned around and walked out which at first was completely confusing but he came back with high pain meds and blood pressure meds and put it in the IV himself which was kinda shocking since nurses usually are the ones to do that. I had a CT done and found out that my Crohn’s disease was being an ass but also on top of it I had cyst on my ovaries. He had me come back this morning at 6:50 after getting home at 2ish in the morning for an ultrasound. I wasn’t to happy since I was still in pain and on two hours of sleep. I have to wait until tomorrow to find out what up with the cyst. I’m in a bad flair right now from the Crohn’s but nothing he could do but give me some pain meds for it which sucks because here I was too sick but not enough to keep in the hospital. I’m a little worried about the cyst and hope to get it taken care of soon. Still waiting for Medicaid to approve me for Humira which my G.I. Doctor is working hard to get me on b Medicaid is being a prick so yea…. things have been crazy scary and exhausting to say the least.
I am constantly torn between wanting to improve myself and wanting to destroy myself.
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Never trust your tongue when your heart is bitter.
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